So it finally arrived.
The day I had been dreading and tormenting myself over for the last 4 years and 2 months: Burton’s first day at school.
I awoke this morning following a restless night awake for most of it thinking about today, so instead of being bright eyed and bushy tailed, I was more bleary eyed and frizzy haired! Anyway, a little before 7am I heard Burton stirring and then I listened to him and Jenson share a little conversation which really made me smile
Burton: Jenson, if I take my phone (not a real one but a toy one !) to ******* school today, you can call me to see how I am getting on
Jenson: (excitedly) Yes Burton, I will!
Sadly, for both boys phones, toy ones or otherwise, are not permitted at school so after being the bearer of this bad news it was agreed that Jenson would keep his phone close by in case Burton needed to contact him for any reason!! How? You may ask…… by Burton holding his hand to his ear to make a pretend phone of course!!!
We arrived at his new school early – in fact we were the first ones there (*this* has never happened before we are rarely early to things, and it may possibly never happen again!) and Burton skipped down the path happy to have arrived. While we waited he had a little look inside his new ‘Seahorses’ classroom.
Once the doors opened we went in and found his peg and hung his PE kit bag and coat up and then made our way to his classroom. As soon as we entered I could feel a huuuuge wave of emotion swell up inside me and tears well up and I was thinking to myself “not here, not now don’t cry in front of him“!. Thankfully, I held it together (until we left!). We left him perfectly happy trying to decide what activity to do first, I felt a mixture of relief and upset – it was strange.
When we arrived to collect him he was happy to see us, and he would not stop talking about his day. He coloured in a seahorse, he threaded beads, did some PE where “you will not believe this we took off our socks and our shoes, it was funny” !! He played outside and there were stilts and he ate all his lunch and snack. He also bought home his book bag containing three books all of which we have read twice before he went to bed tonight!
Needless to say he enjoyed his first day at school and it looking forward to returning tomorrow. I am so happy for him. I still feel a little heatrbroken and sad and could still cry if I think about this milestone too much. However, knowing how much he loved today makes me very happy and very proud.
Today marked the end of an era and it made me sad BUT it also marks the beginning of a whole new chapter in Burton’s life, and as long as it continues to make him happy then I will be too.