As I sit here fed up with packing and surrounded by lots of filled boxes ready for our impending move this weekend, I am on the one hand looking forward to moving to a bigger house with off street parking and a garden, BUT I am also a little sad to be leaving this house. I will miss my lovely modern kitchen, with is range cooker and wooden work surface, my big, deep bath and large shower and the under floor heating that keep my feet toasty warm. My bedroom which was converted from the loft space it once was, with its views out of the velux windows.
It is a lovely house, not much to look at from the outside but inside its lovely, and more importantly, it has been a wonderful home – my first home as a parent and the first home that my children have had.
It was when I read them their bedtime story and kissed my boys goodnight earlier, that it hit me that after tonight their bedroom would be somewhere else. Of all the rooms in my house, it is their bedroom which means the most to me, and is making me a little emotional. It is the one I will miss the most.
Their bedroom is the one which I knew was going to be the nursery when we moved in here 4 years and three weeks ago (approximately), when I was 5 weeks pregnant with Burton. Although we never decorated it as such, it remained the magnolia colour that OH had painted it a few months previously the same as the rest of the house, I picked this room out and couldn’t wait for it to become the bedroom for my new baby. Although we were late getting the essentials for it like the cot, which arrived about 2 weeks before my due date, and then when it got here it had been sent with two ends the same so had to be returned and another sent out to us! My Mum had given us a double bed which she no longer needed, and it was in the ‘nursery’ ready for those nights when I might have to sleep there (little did I know back then that I would do this until Burton was almost 10 months old!). A couple of times I would lay on that bed, heavily pregnant, and read a story to my bump and imagine what he/she would look like.
Bringing our new baby into our home 8 months after we moved in was a wonderful feeling. I spent hours in the nursery trying to breast feed Burton, struggling to get him to latch on, then breast feeding him on demand which took up so much time and watching him fall asleep in my arms while sat on my nursing chair (that chair remains to this day the most comfortable I have ever sat in – miss it really!).
Many nights up all hours sat on that chair nursing him, looking at him, his perfect beautiful face which I could happily gaze at all day. Feeling so happy, so proud so totally over whelmed with love and awe and sat there crying over how much he meant to me! Of course there were also many a time spent in that bedroom going stir crazy when he would wake up screaming and I was unable to get him back into his cot asleep; teething hell and times when I doubted myself as a mummy and thought it was all too much. It was hard going at times, as it is for all of us and a huuuuge learning curve.
Those mornings when he was weaning, and he would wake me up for his morning feed and then we would get into bed (I slept next to the cot from when he moved in there aged 3 months) and have a little nap until he would wake up for breakfast about an hour later. All those nap times when he would only go to sleep on the bed next to me so I would surround him with pillows and let him sleep there because he would always wake up whenever I attempted to move him into his cot!
In May last year, we surprised Burton by giving his bedroom a make over in the style of Toy Story 3 (the Toy Story trilogy were his favourite films at the time). His face when he walked in and saw it was just priceless and even his Daddy (who designed and decorated it to such a high standard) had a little tear in his eye!
Burton loved it and he would go up to the Toy Story characters and kiss them, stroke them and try to hug them!
After turning one back in March, we moved Jenson into Burton’s bedroom and we had to teach him to refer to it as ‘our’ room instead of ‘my’ room!
He still calls it his room now! Jenson loved being allowed to share a room with his big brother and even now the pair of them run in there laughing and causing trouble!
I will miss this room. It has seen so many amazing moments and holds so many special memories for me. Of course Burton and Jenson wont remember it as time goes by, but I always will because it was their first bedroom. A special place where I had to overcome so many mummy hurdles and the boys passed some milestones along the way. I know that their new room will be lovely once we have decorated it and kitted it out how the boys wants it, but right now I just feel a bit emotional about leaving this one behind.
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I will miss this room. It has seen so many amazing moments and holds so many special memories for me. Of course Burton and Jenson wont remember it as time goes by, but I always will because it was their first bedroom. A special place where I had to overcome so many mummy hurdles and the boys passed some milestones along the way. I know that their new room will be lovely once we have decorated it and kitted it out how the boys wants it, but right now I just feel a bit emotional about leaving this one behind.
Aww your house is beautiful. I can see why you are moving with a tear in one eye and a smile in the other, but I’m sure you will make lots of lovely memories in your new home. I hope the move goes well and it won’t be too stressful x
Awww such a moving post. The toy story bedroom is gorgeous. The whole house looks lovely. Good luck with the move. Just think of all the new memories you’ll make in your new home x
Awww such a moving post. The toy story bedroom is gorgeous. The whole house looks lovely. Good luck with the move. Just think of all the new memories you’ll make in your new home x
AAAAwwwww gosh what a lovely lovely post. Your house is bloody amazing!!!!!! (Did your OH do all that himself? Wow!). It will always be such a special place for you and the people that have bought it are so lucky to be getting such a beautiful home. We need to start thinking about moving too sometime soon but at the moment I can’t bear the thought of leaving those first memories of z and its mine and OHs first home together too. (I know, such a wimp!). I hope your move goes well and your next home is just as perfect :).
This is such a lovely post Jenny, it will be wonderful to be able to look back at this when the boys are older and show them their first house.
The house is beautiful, I’m especially envious of your amazing bathroom and I’ve always loved Burtons/Burton and Jensons bedroom.
Sounds like you really have so many lovely memories there xxx
what a nice post to have and to show the boys one day!
I can’t wait to see photos of your new home that I am sure you will fill with lots of new happy memories x
I feel like a crap Mum looking at your boys’ gorgeous bedroom. We moved in when I was 8 1/2 mths pregnant and I’m the one who does the DIY etc. Our boys’ have plain white walls. the odd wall decal and pink shelves left from previous owners. Not exactly th elittle haven I pictured before I had children. You have inspired me to pull my finger out in the spring and do something about it!
I’m also very jealous of your nursing chair and wish we’d bought one especially when Spud was little as he used to feed all night during his first winter and a comfy chair would have been great.
Good luck with the move xxx
Yay! I miss reading your blog and it’s nice to be back seeing a very nice room of your boys…I am very jealous though and same as Kate, I feel like a crap mum, too thinking our place is a chaos at the moment.
I miss flashback Friday, post…hmmm…thinking ***
Sending you loads of sunshine from Thailand.
All the best,
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Your house looks lovely, so I’m sure you have chosen an equally lovely one to move to. Moving house is hard, particularly when your babies have grown their, but you will create lots of fab new memories in your new house I’m sure.
This makes me think of our move last year. We’d spent many years redoing our last house till we had it pretty much as we wanted it. I still miss my big oversize bath and beautiful bathroom and don’t even get me started on the kitchen. It’s telling that the room that I spend the most waking time in is the only one in house that we’ve done ourselves so far. I’ve no regrets about the move and eventually this house will be much better than the last one, but it’s going to take time, effort and money to get it there. Lacking the money at the moment to make much progress. Your house is lovely and I think it’s inevitable you will miss certain aspects of it. Is it always so neat and tidy though? I’m in aue.
I think it’s great that you’ve taken some great photos of their old room so that they can remember it (or even just see where they spent their early years if they can’t remember that time).
Our new home will be better in the end I am sure. As you say it will take time and longer this second time around.
And no, those photos were taken for the estate agent details! It’s never that tidy!! Xx
Thanks Ella . Our new home will be lovely because it is who you are with that counts isn’t it? Xx
Thanks Carolin, we will make some lovely memories in the new home, they will just be new and different x
Hello! Thanks for stopping by from the hot sunshine!
My house isn’t – ooops I mean wasn’t – always that neat and tidy!! X
Oh no don’t feel crap! burton has magnolia until he was almost two nothing wrong with that! I would love to see what you decide to go with when you decorate their room!
I was very lucky to have that nursing chair we sold it on once Jenson stopped breast feeding – such a shame as it was amazing x
Thanks Lovely lady! I will post some pics once we are in and settle d x
Thank you Lauren I will enjoy telling them about it when they are older. It was a lovely house and not always like that of course, that was staged for the estate agent. Details!! Xx
Thanks Tas. It is fab although never like that as those were staged for the estate agent details. – we move all the clutter and toys from room to room as the photos were taken., but my OH did most the wok himself with his dad x
Thanks Laura. Thanks it’s almost done now jus a bit more cleaning to do in the morning then goodbye old house x
I love the fact you have written a post about this and included so many lovely photos, as it will be lovely for them to read when they are older as you say they won’t remember it like you will.
I have been inspired by Kirstie Allsop and my sister has promised to help out in the Spring. Trying to think of a theme which will grow with the boys x
Wow! You’re moving even closer to Xmas than I did – hope it all goes well. It’s such a lovely space and I’m sure you’ll create them an even better one in no time 😉 xxx
As I told you at the time, this has made me cry. Your love is tangible.