I am sure I am not alone in saying this, but I regret not having more photos taken of me with the boys when they were tiny babies. I regret that I haven’t had more taken full stop since I became a Mummy showing me being one in front of the camera instead of hiding away behind it!
I was happy having my photo taken within minutes of having given birth, looking knackered, yet I tended to shy away from the camera lens soon after once I was home and living my new life as a parent. I think as much as I relished my new role and loved being Burton’s Mummy, I just thought I looked awful. Still carrying post baby weight with the jelly belly that stays with you after giving birth which no one tells you about, and not being able to hide it; no time to make my hair look nice to it always looked a bit like a birds nest; tired looking skin and dark circles under my eyes – I honestly lost my camera confidence and didn’t feel comfortable ‘posing’ for photos. Any photos that I appear in with Burton showed me with either my back facing the camera, my hair draping my face or smiling but not relaxing and using Burton to cover my face or body!!
It seems so silly now and how vain was I to let this worry me?
However, the odd capture was taken of me with my first born when he was small, and although at the time I HATED seeing them and having them taken, I look back at them now and I am grateful to my OH that he did manage to take some of me and Burton. I also don’t think I look half as bad as I thought at the time – maybe my post baby hormones and complete tiredness warped my mind and eyesight back then!!? No different to how I look now really. If anything I think I look young in these photos. I mean I was younger, obviously, but I look younger than I thought I did.
When Burton was about 5 or 6 weeks old (cannot remember exactly, bit of a blur looking back now!) , his daddy set up his new professional camera equipment (photography is a hobby of his) in our hallway upstairs and got me and Burton to ‘pose’ for him. I know how I felt at the time and I can see by my face in some of the photos taken, that I wasn’t relaxed at all and felt uncomfortable at being in front of the camera. Burton of course relished the lime light (well considering how many photos Daddy took in the first year of his life he was used to having his picture taken!), and I look back on this photos and it melts my heart. Seeing how he looks at me – he doesn’t give a hoot about how I looked. I was his Mummy and I looked after him and fed him. And I loved him.
*That* is all he was interested in (just like now).
If only I had not lacked so much confidence post baby I could have had so many other gorgeous photo shoots taken by my OH of Burton and I. This I do regret. However, you can’t fight your emotional well being post baby you just have to muddle your way through as best you can, and hindsight is a wonderful thing!
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gorgeous photos Jenny….that top one of Burton is great! I’m like you, you’ll hardly find me in any photos! x
You look so beautiful in those photos. Burton is so cute and squishy.
The top one is my favourite. Burtons expression is so funny and you look absolutely stunning.
I also love the second one down on the left and the middle photo, simply because of how he is looking at you.
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thanks Helen. i think most mums are the same – we tend to take them instead! x
aww thanks Lauren. he was so expressive from the outset always pulling so many funny looks! i will do a post about them one day! x
You look gorgeous in these! I know exactly what you mean, I kept thinking I’ll wait a bit till I looked a bit healthier but then the time never came and we now don’t have any professional pics at all. They’re just what we’ve snapped on our camera or iPhones!
Such gorgeous photos, I love the one were he is looking at you! Beautiful! I was the same, hiding away from the camera but I do have a few that I treasure. xx
Yep, I did the same with Leo, hardly any photos of me and him,not a single one from the hospital. I keep meaning to put something nice on an get some of Louka & me! 10 days until Aaron is off and then we are going to get some family shots 🙂
Lovely photos, by the way!
Oh I fully understand and I am exactly the same. Hardly any of me and the boys. You do look gorgeous in these photos you really do. x
It is funny because I think you look absolutely lovely, you have a mummy glow about you that you just can’t beat. I am exactly the same though, even now I still hate photos of myself so I prefer to hide behind the camera- I am just not photogenic at all. I have hardly any of me and Mads in the early days, apart from crappy snapshots where I look hideous! xx
I think you look lovely in these photo. As Kate says, you have that mummy glow. I love the way Burton is looking at you in the middle photo. Says it all really! I also regret not having more of me and the kids. It’s always daddy and the kids or someone else and the kids or just the kids. Trying to change that though! x
They are beautiful photographs, really loving and honest. Burton looks adorable in them and you look gorgeous. I wish I’d had more photographs taken of me and The Boy when he was younger, and indeed now. I’ve asked hubby but he’s a bit of a pain in the bum about remembering.
Agree absolutely – I have been hiding from cameras for years (due to bad skin) I wish I didn’t care because there are so few shots of me with my children now 🙁 x