At 3.19am on Wednesday 15th July, 2009 my baby boy was born. My first born. My Burton.
I remember that July morning like it were only yesterday. I recall how much I was shaking, probably from the adrenaline of having just given birth after 46 hours of labour. I was shaking so much whilst trying to hold my newborn baby that I kept asking his daddy to hold him because I was afraid I would hurt him in some way!
I remember how relieved I was that he was perfect, all his fingers and toes were present and correct and he was beautiful. The most beautiful baby I had ever seen and he was all mine. The baby I had longed for so badly was finally here in my life. And I had helped make this amazing 8lb bundle of perfection. I was in complete awe and the feeling of love that washed over me – wham! It just hit me and has never gone away.
I remember sitting up on the ward a few hours later while daddy had popped to his mums to have some breakfast, looking out of the window at this new day as a new mummy with my new baby who lay sleeping in his hospital crib.
I know that I ate some jam and toast and drank some tea from a greeny-blue coloured tea cup and saucer. The nicest toast and tea I had ever had up til then. There were two other mums in the beds opposite me, separated by privacy curtains. One was a second time Mum and was very loud and the other I never saw but I heard her baby crying.
And then there was me. Sat waiting for daddy to return and for the paediatrician to arrive to give Burton the once over. And then it hit me. I was a mummy and now the birth was over I was now faced with the hardest part – the unknown. Would I cope with being a parent? I was now responsible for another human being for the rest of my life. I was scared and anxious about how I was going to manage.
I remember panicking at one moment that Burton was dead, because he looked so grey suddenly (the light) and because he slept so soundly and I couldn’t see him breathing, I had to go over and listen intently to hear him take a breath and feel his breath!!! That was the first of many times when I would have to check that my baby was alive while he slept! Seems silly now, but it was such a scary, heart stopping moment lasting a few long seconds that morning.
I will never forget the day that was the first of Burton’s life. The first day I became a Mummy, a parent. The beginning of my new life as a family with my baby and his daddy. The day that we became three. The best day of my life and the happiest I have ever been (until March 30th 2011 when Jenson was born which gave me my second favourite day).
The sun rose at 4.59am that morning, about the time that the above photo of the three of us was taken. I couldn’t have known what the sky was like at that moment for the curtains were drawn in my birthing suite, although I know it was light outside.
Luckily for me The Day That Was company have been able to do just that for me and capture the sky as the sun rose that July morning that I welcomed my son into the world. Here is the beautiful sky that was photographed that day at sunrise.
Such a stunning photograph isn’t it? An amazing capture to mark an amazing moment in my life. A photograph that will always remind me of Burton’s first day on this earth and my first day as a mummy.
A photograph that I will enjoy forever and whenever I see it it will take me right back to that day a recurring flashback that will always bring me pleasure. And one that I will pass onto Burton one day.
A timeless reminder of a very special day and a very unique personalised baby gift that I will always treasure.
I was sent my photogift for the purpose of this review. All thoughts about my photograph and the memories it evokes are all my own and are honest and true.
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That first picture of Burton is totally gorgeous! Lovely post x
thank you. x
Aww, he hasn’t changed at all, has he?
Gorgeous Jenny- and I checked Mads was breathing constantly- we had a scary incident with her where she went unresponsive and we had to rush her to hospital, so from that moment on I had to check her literally constantly- I think all Mummy’s do that, I am sure that I will be like that with the second one too! x
This is lovely Jenny. I love the photos too, he still looks the same! The top photo is lovely.
I love the sunrise photo too. Such a lovely keepsake xx
Such a lovely post and such a wonderful photograph. – Herding Cats
I’ve been writing flashbacks for the past couple of weeks and knew there was a linky somewhere but had trouble finding you. Anyway I’m here now and off to link up, see you again next week! x