Today was not a great day. In fact it has to be said it was a crap day.
I was woken up at 4.25am by Burton who, when I enquired what the matter was, told me that “me awake” ! After a little drink and a gingerbread man I said that he ought to be back to sleep because in a few hours he would be off to Ladybirds again. He replied with “me not want to go to Ladybirds. Me not like it. Me want to stay here with you”. My heart sank but I said that he would feel differently when he got up later on………..but to be honest, I knew then that I would have trouble leaving him at nursery today.
Things got worse at breakfast. From the chat he had with Granma last week Daddy and I already knew that the reason he wouldn’t go outside and play in the lovely playground, which he had enjoyed so much during his first session, was because he wanted to stay indoors and wait for mummy (awwww!). So Daddy was trying to persuade him to go out and play today but Burton kept saying “me stay indoors for mummy” in the end he got upset and started crying so nothing more was said on the matter.
When it was time to set off, he didn’t want to go and kept saying “me stay home me not like Ladybirds” and he was getting teary. I was finding it hard not to lose control of my emotions myself, and I got him in the car but all the way there he was crying and I felt awful, even though I was telling him that he would have a fun time etc…. Once inside the nursery, he wouldn’t leave my side so I took him off to the story corner and we found The Gruffalo’s Child’ which Tanita started reading. I did try to go during the story but he clung onto me very tightly. Once it finished, Tanita looked at me and I knew what her look meant so I nodded and I hugged and kissed him goodbye, and handed Burton to her and walked away while he screamed at me!! Outside I could still hear him. You can imagine how I felt.
So that was bad enough, but then I managed to make an already crappy start t the day even worse! Through crying eyes I reversed out of the car park and misjudged the width of the entrance and *bang!* I hit the wall!! I didn’t stop to look what I had done, instead I drove the few miles home to investigate it there. Except, my crappy day that had just got worse became a ruddy terrible day because as I pulled up outside my house I scuffed the front left tyre against the kerb!! At the time I didn’t think I had done anything so I looked at the rear lights and I had managed to shatter and break the plastic covering! Jon was already coming down the stairs as I entered the house, as he read my tweet saying how Burton had been crying when I left so loud I could hear him outside. He looked at me and I was crying and I said that I had crashed the back of the car into a wall, and he said that he had heard me pull up and hit the kerb (he wasn’t happy as he is always telling me to make sure I don’t do that,which I never have until today) so off he went to investigate.
His face said it all when he came in. Aswell as breaking the rear lights I had dented the bumper and ripped a small hole in the wheel rendering it undriveable! Oh and damage totalling about £600 *sighs* . He has barely said two words to me since it happened – I am in the doghouse BIG time!
Of course being without a car meant I still had to collect Burton from Ladybirds which is about 2.5-3 miles from where we live. The bus only passes though once an hour each way and are no good as it means waiting 30 mins for Burton to finish and 40 mins once he does, and Landkey is a village so doesn’t have a cafe we could wait in. So I had no choice but to walk it which is doable but half of the journey is on a country road with no pavements! Anyway, it took about 40 minutes to walk there and luckily Jenson slept so he didn’t need entertaining while I was walking as fast as I could!
Burton was fine when I arrived and he was so happy to see me. I had a really long hug and kiss and he held me really tightly. The staff told me that he calmed down about quarter of an hour after I left, but he wouldn’t go outside to play! They also said that he is getting better each week and he is happy enough and loves to ‘help’ them clearing up!!
His report said:
Burton soon settled this morning, after a couple of stories which he really enjoyed. this morning he enjoyed drawing a picture of his house and chatting about his family. He also joins in with a sponge painting. Burton has been playing q game about feelings and what makes us happy and sad. He as also been counting and practising his colours which he is fab at! He has been singing songs aswell. Burton has been playing with the animals and dinosaurs with his friends.
I asked him on the long walk home what made him happy and sad, and he said that me playing with him made him happy and Daddy being upstairs and not playing made him sad (Daddy works from home). I would love to know the things he talks about when he is at Ladybirds and what he says about his family and other things! He also said that “me like Ladybirds” – fickle boy!
So the moral to this story : don’t cry and drive!
PS. a BIG thank you to those people on twitter today who were so kind and lovely about my crappy day 🙂
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It does sound like a really crappy day! However, you still sound very positive despite everything which is good going. It does sound like he’s getting used to nursery but it must be so hard leaving him. I hope the car gets sorted soon, I get so cross with myself if I damage my vehicle, it’s so frustrating!
Oh what a horrible day, hun. Tomorrow can only get better. I hope that Burton starts settling into nursery quickly so that it gets a bit easier for you to leave him. I can only imagine how horrible it must be for you to see him crying his eyes out x
OMG! What a tough day (and expensive one too).
I had the same when I used to leave G at the creche at the beginning, she only stays about 2 hours but was sometimes unable to settle after 25 minutes of crying and me hearing her through the wall. The lady who runs the place advised me to go 3-4 days in a row for a couple of weeks. G was much younger and found it hard to understand that mummies always come back. Perhaps Burton is a bit shocked when Monday comes and he has to go. Could you feasibly drop him another day a week too? Once things become routibe, they are much easier. G now doesn’t want to leave when I pick her up! Even if she still cries or whimper when I drop her off.
Good on you for your 40 mins trek both way and good on Jenson for sleeping!
Hope (and I am sure) tomorrow is a better day x
Oh no 🙁 It does sound like you had a rotten day. I can imagine how you and B both felt. Hope Jon is talking to you again soon! Sending you hugs. xx
he is enjoying it – the staff say they are seeing a marked improvement and that he is settling in better. its just the dropping off which is such a nightmare. x
thank you x
it was – thanks for your comment. he isn’t yet……and has now gone to bed so we will see tomorrow. x
I did feel for you yesterday, your children beige upset is awful and I’ve been there believe me! As I said yesterday I have also bumped the car when stressed so you are definitely not alone! As stupid as it sounds, maybe you need to put Burton in for two sessions, the leader from my daughter’s playgroup always said that two sessions are better as it halos them to settle in better. It also doesn’t help that he sees that you are staying with Jenson, I think at that age they don’t understand! I really hope it gets better and the car is only a car at the end of the day as long as you are ok, that’s the main thing!
Thank you for your comment – it waa a rubbish day indeed !! You might be right about putting B in twice a week its just that i didnt want him to do two just yet but maybe it would help him x
Oh No Jenny…sometimes you just know the moment you wake up that the day is going to be crap & just gets crapper….the walk probably did you the world of good. I know only too well about crying & driving….that day my bumper suffered too! Can’t you claim on the insurance?
I’m glad Burton is settling more quickly at Nursery, although it’s horrid when they cry when you leave them…at least you know he is happy when he’s there…it’s probably because it’s such a long time in between sessions & I’m sure it will be a lot better once he starts going more frequently.
Anyway today’s another day…make cake & put on a happy face 🙂
xxx
I think sometimes you wake up and just know it is going to be a crappy day- I am so sorry that yours was a bad one. I can imagine it must be heart breaking to leave Burton crying, I certainly wold be crying too. At least you know he is happy when he is there but still it must be so hard leaving him. Sorry Jenny for a rubbish day. xx
yes you certainly do! it was just one thing after another!! thank you for your comment – its nice to have such great blogging buddies 🙂 x
I know Helen – what a rubbish day! The walk did do me good – i actually enjoyed it but everything else was so demoralising!
i have made a cake tonight (Jon’s birthday tomorrow) so i will enjoy a slice tomorrow !! thank you of commenting – i have great blogging buddies x
Oh Jenny! What a day. I often leave Roo at preschool crying her eyes out and it really is heartwrenching. I am told she settles almost immediately, but it’s still so horrid to see them sad.
I hope Jon has forgiven you for the car damage, these things happen xx
Oh no, poor you. If it makes you feel better I drove into our garage door the other day. the kids were winding me up in the back and I lost concentration for a second.
I hope today has been better. xx
Oh no 🙁 What a crappy day. Since driving my car I have dented in the door, bumped the back and the front and scrapped the front tyre, all while parking in a multi-storey car park. Luckily my car was on a few hundred quid so I didn’t get into much trouble but maybe just cry lots until you get let off?! Although not whilst driving of course 😉 xx
it was Jess! It also means i can’t come on MOnday 🙁
You don’t have much luck in multi storey car parks at all do you ??ooops! i did cry lots but he wasn’t swayed. he is talking to me now though – just! x
Crapola! Hope Jon is talking to you by now. It *will* get better with Burton.
its so easily done isn’t it? yes today has been better (apart from my awful cold!) thank you x
thanks Steph – its awful levying them to cry while you walk off isn’t it? you just feel so mean but at least I know that he does calm down and enjoy himself in the end.
I wouldn’t say he has forgiven me, BUT he is talking to me now at least x
Oh god, that is a crappy day, poor you! Keep going with nursery, I think it will get easier in time. Allegra is younger than Burton, but I know she would cry when I first would leave her (although would stop crying about a minute after I left and be fine) and now, a couple of months in, she is waving me out the door without a tear in sight and she has a great time there getting filthy in the sandpit and doing messy play with jelly and painting pictures – it’s been great for her I think, although am always very grateful for our fridays-sundays together 🙂 xx
Aww what a crappy day!
Firstly keep going with the nursery it does get easier i promise!
Secondly – dont worry about the car, its just a car. Whilst preganant with Ethan i managed to catch my back wheel arch on a post in the car park scrapping the whole of the wheel arch, i sat in the car sobbing whilst i rang my OH to tell him what i had done to HIIS car… it survived and we drove it as it was!
Chin up tomorrow is another day!
What a crappy day, it does get better hon. Crying is so difficult, they are fine after we go but it doesn’t help us. Huge big hugs sweetie, I feel for you xxx